See I’m all excited about seeing New Found Glory tomorrow now, I haven’t been at all since I heard about the shows, but now I wanna go to them all, the problem with that is that I have no money at all. It means that I have to get National Express everywhere and no hotels, since I only have £100 to do the whole tour with, no idea how I’m going to do it, but I’m excited…

I’m going to my mates brothers house tonight to play pro evo with about 10 other people in a league, £2 in the pot and the winner takes all. I came second last time by one point, didn’t lose a match, but just drew a lot. The money should come in handy though if i win…

I’ve had so much on my mind recently, and I really want to write about them on here, but I’ve no been able to explain it in words. I’ll start writing something, but half way through I’ll just look back at it an think that’s bullshit. Other than that I’m going to New Found Glory on Saturday, but I’m so unprepared for it. I’ve just booked a coach to London and back, so I’m definitely going to the first 2 shows, no idea what’s happening after that, since I only have £100 for the whole thing. End of the day I should be concentrating on moving to London, by finding a job and then somewhere to live, so I shouldn’t be wasting money on going to gigs. But right now I’m very sleepy, so I’m going to watch Without A Trace, and then hopefully fall asleep, but I’ll probably not be able to get comfy…

Want to say well done to a very sweet girl, who did very well in her A level results, and I’m very very proud of her. Love you sweetie…

I have only ever deleted two people off my tumblr following list, because I look at my dashboard and it says 14 in the little red bubble, but then i refresh my page, and its full of shots of pointless famous people that certain people seem to be obsessed with, I don’t get it, and I fucking hate it. If I wanted to gorp at famous people all day I would go on the thousands of celebrity stalking websites that are on the Internet, keep it the fuck off my dashboard…

Scientists have found that popcorn has health-boosting properties, this is awesome because i love popcorn so much, but I think the amount of salt I have on it might negate the healthy element of it. It contains amounts of healthy antioxidant plant chemicals called polyphenols, also found in fruits, vegetables, chocolate, wine, coffee and tea, are known to protect the heart and reduce the risk of cancer. So I’m going to get loads of Orville Redenbacher next time I go to the shop…

I was just minding my own business making some toast, when an evil wasp buzzed right in front of my face, I hate wasps!!! So it buzzed around my food and drink for a bit, but eventually found its way to the window, but now I keep thinking there is something crawling on me, need a shower me thinks…

I hate my face, I really do…

A lot of people ask me why I want to go back to school at nearly 26 year old?? Well I’ve wanted to do it for years, but I was enjoying getting money from working, but then when I quit my job I thought I’d give it a shot. So when I moved down south, I was hoping to maybe go to Reading college, but I needed a job to live there, but no one would take me on. The final straw was when I applied to McDonald’s, the place where I thought I’d be guaranteed a job, but obviously I wasn’t spotty enough for flipping burgers and getting orders wrong. So now I’m finally going to spend the next 10 years of my life in school, hopefully…

Mmm I love toast, it’s pretty much all I’ve been eating recently, with lots of Primula cheese and chives on it. I’m feeling a lot better from it as well, feeling a lot thinner as well, just need to do a bit of exercise to get fit now, hopefully I’ll find a job that will work me out a little bit…

My apology was accepted, and were all friends again now. I’m all happy again now, I can’t wait until Thursday, so I can start making plans for the future and start looking for a job in the city of her choice. I should really go to sleep now, since I’ve got to be up at 8ish to go to the job centre again, so I can be told I should do more to look for a job, even though no one will give me a job, because of my old job giving me a shit reference for my attendance, I hate Morrisons…

I want to tell somebody that I’m sorry, but I’m worried it’s too late to save what we had. I really miss talking to her, but I don’t know what to say. I don’t blame her for being angry with me, I was out of order to take out my frustration on her. I want to tell her that I don’t blame her for me being mental, it’s just so frustrating that we can’t be together right now. I don’t know what to do, other than say I still love you and I’m sorry…

I’m fed up with being so unfit, that even walking down to the job centre and back to the train station, makes me sweat like a bitch and leaves me knackered…
I’m fed up with being so mental, that I make everyone hate me for no reason, so much so that I push everyone away who loves me…
I’m fed up with dreaming about my ex-girlfriend, because she will never forgive me for everything I did to her, no matter how much i apologise…
I’m fed up of not being confident enough to apply for more jobs, just because I hate being rejected for things I know I can do…
I’m fed up of having dreams, that no one thinks I can achieve, and anyone that can help me, just puts me down when I ask for it…
I’m fed up with not having any friends where I live, and the ones that I do have just think I am a joke…

I’m very unhappy at the moment…

I love that writing on tumblr has improved my spelling, I’ve been writing in text language for so long now in conversations on MSN and even on comments on peoples myspace and facebook profiles, but when I’m on tumblr I think its better to write in proper English. In most posts that I write I go back and use the spell check, and at first every post I did was full of mistakes, but now if there are any mistakes its just a typing error and not a spelling error, so basically I’m back to the skills of an eight year old…